- Selena Gomez’s new documentary “My Mind & Me” premiered on Apple TV+ on Friday.
- In the film, Gomez reflected on her No. 1 hit “Lose You to Love Me” and the pain that inspired it.
- “I just think this was meant to happen and it ended up being the best thing that ever happened to me,” he said.
Selena Gomez said “Lose You to Love Me” was “the fastest song I’ve ever written” in a scene from her new documentary.
“Selena Gomez: My Mind & Me” launched on Apple TV+ on Friday and follows Gomez’s struggles with her physical and mental health. About halfway through the film, Gomez is seen accepting the 2019 McLean Award for Mental Health Advocacy. During her speech, she talked about her bipolar diagnosis.
“Being honest that night helped,” Gomez said in a voiceover. “I texted Julia Michaels and Justin Trander and said, ‘I think I’m ready to just say I’m sad.’
Gomez, Michaels and Tranter went on to write her biggest hit to date, an emotional ballad called “Lose You to Love Me,” which reached No. 1 on the Billboard Hot 100 in late 2019.
“We wrote the song in 45 minutes,” Gomez said. “It’s more than a lost love. I’m learning to choose myself, to choose life, but also to hope that people can find grace and peace in that. The song is about knowing that you’ve completely lost every part of your face is, just to rediscover yourself.”
As her voiceover continued, a montage of Gomez being harassed by paparazzi, all asking questions about her ex-boyfriend Justin Bieber — who had gotten engaged to Hailey Bieber (née Baldwin) just months before the release of “Lose You to Love Me”. .
“Everything was so public. I felt like I was being haunted by a past relationship that no one wanted to let go of,” Gomez said. “But then I got over it. And I wasn’t afraid anymore.”
“I feel like I had to go through the worst possible heartbreak ever,” she added in another scene, apparently filmed in the dressing room for the “Look at Her Now” music video.
“Then I just forgot everything,” she continued, adding, “It was really confusing. But I think this was meant to happen and it ended up being the best thing that ever happened to me.”
Gomez went on to release “Rare,” an emotional pop album that heavily explored themes of depression, grief, betrayal, and rebirth.
While promoting the album on NPR, Gomez said she felt like “definitely abused” during her relationship with Bieber.
When asked by the reporter if she was referring to emotional abuse, the singer said: “Yeah, and I think it’s something that – I had to find a way to understand it as an adult. And I had to understand the choices that I made. manufacturing.”
She added that she has since found a way to move on from the relationship.
“I’ve found strength in that. It’s dangerous to stay in a victim mentality,” she said, adding, “I felt like I didn’t close respectfully and I’ve accepted that, but I know I needed a way. I just want to say a few things that I would like to I have said”.